Taylor Sanders Lost Her Baby to Miscarriage and Her Mom to Cancer but Is Now Coming Out the 'Other Side' (Exclusive)

The song is "about how you sometimes have to climb mountains to find the light," the singer-songwriter, who has since welcomed a son, tells PEOPLE

It was November of 2022, and aspiring country artist Taylor Sanders was one day away from shooting the music video for her debut single "Firecracker." But as she sat in her stylist's chair getting her hair done, the phone rang.

And her world crumbled.

"I was pregnant, and had just gotten a follow up ultrasound done," recalls Sanders, 37, during an interview with PEOPLE. "They said that they thought I was about eight weeks along. But then they said that the heartbeat had stopped."

It was the heartbeat that Sanders and her husband Adam had waiting so very long to hear, and a heartbeat that they believed would ultimately change the course of their collective lives. And for the rest of the day, Sanders allowed herself to crumble both physically and mentally.

"I told myself I was going to grieve and cry the morning of the video shoot, but then I was going to get my makeup on and get ready to shoot this video," Sanders recounts quietly. "It's almost like I dissociated from myself and became the artist 'Taylor Sanders' versus the person 'Taylor Sanders.'"

And as her team rallied around her, Sanders went on.

"I was not experiencing any physical symptoms of miscarriage yet," says Sanders, who married Adam in 2012. "I thought if I could hold it together emotionally and mentally, and I wasn't really sick physically, then I felt like I was going to try and just be strong and do what I love to do. We had put so much work into this and so much planning, so I decided to just push forward."

She then began the 16-hour music video shoot for "Firecracker."

"I was pretty sad and angry for a long time," explains Sanders of the painful months that followed the loss of the baby they called 'little blue.' "But I couldn't give up on myself."

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Soon, Sanders was pregnant again and in December of 2023, Sanders gave birth to a son they named Gage Wolf. But as Sanders and her husband basked in the bliss of their rainbow baby, tragedy struck again when just three weeks after baby Gage was born, the Kentucky girl raised in Tennessee got the news that her mother had died

"She had a bone marrow cancer called myelofibrosis," recalls Sanders quietly of the plight of her mom, who had long served as her 'momager' during a career that began when Sanders sang the national anthem at her kindergarten graduation at 5 years old. "She had an allogenic stem cell transplant and died from complications of grade four graft versus host disease and sepsis. She was 60 years old. She was the strongest person that I know. I've never seen anyone fight so hard."

But while Sanders continues grieving the loss of the baby that never got to be born and her mother just a couple of years later, she knows deep down that there is a reason for it all.

"God puts us through certain situations in order to make us stronger," Sanders says through tears. "He says in the book of Peter 'that only for a while will you suffer.' So, I hold onto that."

Sanders also holds on to her music, including her new single "Other Side.”

"'Other Side’ is about how you sometimes have to climb mountains to find the light on the other side," says Sanders of the song premiering exclusively on PEOPLE which she wrote alongside Terran 'T-RAN' Gilbert, Cash Callaway, Daniel McCurdy. "It’s all about reaching for the light on the other side of the pain. I am strong enough to keep moving on. And I know I’ll be a stronger person for it."

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